Lucky

As I sat at Suzie Rodriguez's funeral today, I couldn't help but think how lucky I am.

Suzie was unfortunate to be stuck with the cancer demon at such a young age. She fought a tough battle. She was determined and strong willed. Very admirable. She showed her four children how to fight and taught them what's important in life. I enjoyed Suzie. She was always a good time and a good laugh.

As I listened to the pastor today, I felt guilty at my own selfish thoughts. I kept thinking how fortunate I am to have both my sisters, my grandma, aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces, nephews, brother in laws, all in-laws, friends, and of course Josh alive and well! I couldn't even think of sitting at one of those funerals. Tara and I exchanged a few sad thoughts too. (She did tell me she wanted someone to add some bronzer to her face. She said, "I don't want to be pale white in there!") I told her I wanted people to tell stories, happy stories about me. It was so sad to know that four family members lost their mother today. I then couldn't bring myself to imagine how my sisters and I would handle not having our mother today. A sad thought I wish to forget.

I know my thoughts today were selfish, but it made me realize how thankful I am to have such healthy family members and friends. I will continue to pray for the Rodriguez family too. RIP Suzie.